today's weather is rather good. sunny-----beautiful sun and clouds.. birds flying high in the sky so freely..
hope to fly like a bird one day. i really dun wish to be trap in this small hole. it's hard for me to breathe.
life shud be easy for me after breakup. but i feel even more stress. i dunno why. maybe i rely on him too much during the two years, soon five to six months passed. i may still be thinking of him whenever i'm alone. Memories we shared. songs we used to listen. drinks that we used to share. places we used to go. i really hope time to turn back. but it is impossible. i may be dreaming to be with u again. but is this possible? i dun even dare to think now. i knew EVERYTHING. THINGS that U dont wish to let me know, i wished that i knew nothing but now my mind, heart is all screwed up. THANKS TO YOU!! Are you happy? i dun even know wad shud i do. can u please tell me. I need air to breathe too. i'm also a human, i have feelings too. why cant u just tell me everything? i will understand. I WILL!!! but why are u hiding everything from me? wad's the big deal? i will be fine after a while. NOW i feeling so terrible. i was like standing at a cross-junction dunno whether to turn left turn right os walk straight. Can u understand? i dun think so! you dun even care to look at me nowadays. The distance is so near but yet so far. i'm so bloody depressed now. is that wad u wish? you are so unfair. SO UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Actually, my mood today is damn good. I went out for lunch with aaron. Skip lesson with leeling while walking out i saw you. your backview and your friends. u don seems to realise. on the way to the market, i dashed across the road, when leeing tried to pull me back i hurt her hand. I'M SORRY LEELING.. i really want to thank you for being such a nice friend. you are always by my side no matter i'm happy or sad. THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH.
AND andy 'm really sorry, i don mean to lie. please forgive me k.
Besides my family, friends are the second most important in my life. i'm now seeking for forgiveness for my wrong-doing. i don mean it. i'm sorry..
