being strong isn't easy as it seems to be

so many days after i didn't reply his msg,
we started sms-ing again today.
he asked me whether i was asleep that night.
y didn't reply him.
i dunno how to reply him in the first place.
i choose not to lie.
so i told him everything i wanted to say.
there's explanations again.
i dunno wad to do.
whether to believe it or not.
argh.
haiss.

left 119 days to actual 'O' levels.
haiss.
haven even start my revision.
dun wish to disappoint my daddy and mummy.
but i really cant concentrate well in my studies.
i have to put everything aside asap.
i have to.

If i CANT, i MUST! hahax.is this sentence familiar?

everyone taking o levels this yr must buck up k. hehex. jia you.